Her Story (Arbortion)

Baby

Is there a time or a moment called the right time for something. Are we really ever ready for most things that happen in our lives??

I mean it's not like I dont think about family and all but it happened unexpectedly and I just couldn't

I just couldn't

Though I kept going back and forth trying to make the decision I decided on this 

The doctor kept on asking me to think about it 

He kept asking if I was sure 

I just nodded my head for the words got stuck on my throat they burned to a point I couldn't speak

I kept telling myself this ain't the right time and the right time will come and I will have many more children

And it worked oh it worked for that moment

But every time id see a child with a mother that memory would come back

It hurts sometimes 

I'd smile and be happy but it would all come back to me when the reflection in the mirror screams at me and asks me 

WHY 

and I can't even answer 

I guess with time I'll heal I'll be fine and things will be okay oh and my demons will lay down

Love 

Mom