Her Story (Being a mother)

Baby

It was just starting I had dreams I had goals I wanted to be someone but it happened and there was nothing I could do  but having you sometimes and somehow feels like you robbed me off my youth and I can't help but wonder where would I be if you weren't born I'm not saying that I don't want you baby its just that having to give up my dreams to build yours kills a part of me everyday. I ask myself endless questions
*should I have just aborted you? I mean I was still young
* should I have given you away?
Yes I kept you because you've become a part of me you're my everything  and I'm sorry I'm really sorry for treating you unfairly sometimes just the feeling this feeling that I don't know if its hate, love, regret or whatever it is gets the better of me sometimes
You give me hope, you give me more reason to live and to try even harder but why does it feel like I'm stuck and I can't accomplish most things I wanted?
It was just too soon and I just want you to know that I don't regret having you
You're helping me to grow

Love
Mom